I’m a planner.
In the morning, I plan my day. I make a list on the giant white-board in my kitchen, previously mentioned in yesterday’s post. I try to check mark as many things off that list as possible before the day ends. (The percentage of completed items is staggeringly shameful. But let’s not get into that)
I plan my week (sort of). I am super forgetful, so I set a million reminders in my calendar and alarms so that I don’t forget due dates and appointments. I plan “dates” with each of my kids (if only they would stop getting grounded), and dates with my boyfriend, like going to the grocery store. Yay.
I plan my year, factoring in raises and bonuses (what are those?) in my finances, saving up for Christmas (the very mention of the word sends my brain into a frenzied panic), repairs on the house, school expenses, trips to visit family and mini vacations. No full vacations for us. Boo.
I plan my future. Five years. Ten years. I plan to take classes to further my education and hopefully help me move up the ranks, maybe get one of those bonuses. I plan to take up new hobbies and push past childhood fears. Like paddle-boarding. I’m terrified of the ocean (and what’s in it) but it looks like tons of fun, and I live 10 minutes from the beach for heaven’s sake. Therefore, I plan to learn 🙂
I plan my wedding (Pinterest is evil), my kids 16th birthdays, where I want to live, where I want my second home (as if).
I plan my kids futures. The best charter schools, where they should work and volunteer that will look good on their college applications. Where they will go to college, what career paths they should go into.
Lots and lots of planning. Lots.
And do you know how much of my planning has come to pass? Ummmm, let me tally up the numbers here……. None. Nothing I have ever planned and worked for has ever actually happened.
Maybe I’m a bad planner. That’s definitely plausible.
Maybe I set unreasonable goals for myself and others. Yeah, I can see that. #controlfreak
Maybe it’s not my fault, life just gets in the way. I might just have bad luck.
Maybe I’m cursed.
Or, maybe my plans don’t match up with Gods and he’s relentlessly trying to steer me away from the nonsense I keep chasing after. (See the video at the end)
Maybe he wants me stop planning so much and start listening.
Maybe he already has a path cleared for me, a trail leading right to an oasis in the desert, but to get there, he requires me to slow down and take one step at a time.
See, I don’t think he going to show me the destination. That would ruin the surprise. I think he wants me to rely on him as my guide. I think he wants to build a relationship with me as I take each step. I think he wants to experience the journey along the way.
How many of us, even with the best of intentions in mind, try to plan out our whole lives in concordance with the world’s standard view of success? Or, if you’re a control freak like me, the lives of the people we love.
God doesn’t want us worrying, planning, analyzing every choice, striving and toiling away to accomplish what we think we should be doing.
He already knows the best path for our lives. All he asks is that we trust him, and obey, one day at a time.
Try stepping back today. Take everything in your five-year plan and forget it. Challenge yourself to live one day at a time. Each day, before anything else, ask God for guidance. Ask him to show you opportunities for you to show his love. Ask him to give you the strength to do your best at everything that comes your way TODAY. Then listen. Stay connected with him throughout the day. Read a chapter in your Bible each morning. If a verse or paragraph sticks out to you, look it up on YouVersion, and re-read it as many times as you can as you go about your day. And when you feel God speaking to you about something, act on it. Today. When you go to bed tonight, know that you took a step in the right direction.
When you wake up in the morning, do it again.
Step by step. One day at a time.
You might be surprised at where God leads you.
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Mathew 6:34
Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” James 4:13-15
In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. Proverbs 16:9