I first just want to apologize. I made a commitment to my readers and over the past few days, I’ve broken that commitment. I let fear get the best of me.
Something God has shown me this week is just how manipulative Satan can be. I felt my whole world crash around me this weekend. Feelings of betrayal, abandonment, broken promises, broken dreams, and self-pity flooded my heart. I felt like I was in the middle of a tornado, with everything around me in chaos and inevitably dying. Then God said “STOP”.
Despite my world crashing around me, I felt an incredible peace, God’s loving arms wrapped around me. I felt this little pulse in my heart telling me, “Keep going, you’re almost there!” I felt like God was telling me to look around, to really look around. I feel like I am losing everything, it looks like I am on the road to financial, relational, and emotional ruin, but am I really? Or is that just the picture of my future that Satan is painting for me?
I don’t know the future, I don’t have any idea what is going to happen. What I know is that today, I have a home. Today, I have food. Today, I have a car. Today, I can write. Today, I can hang out with my kids, all stinkin day. Today, I can choose my words carefully and be an encouragement. Today, I can see and talk to the man I love. Today is full of promise and blessing. Today I have nothing to worry about, God has more than provided for all of my needs.
Satan will often times conjure up our deepest fears and try to make us believe that we will absolutely experience that outcome. What’s funny is that in the midst of all of this, one thing that hasn’t experienced a crumbling of any kind is my spiritual health. In fact, that has improved immensely. We all know that when we move forward spiritually, when we align our hearts with God, the Enemy throws a full on hissy fit and charges at us with full force in an attempt to stop us. We also know that he’s already lost and that the only thing that gives his lies power is our belief in them.
So, I don’t know about you, but I choose to believe God and his promises over the manipulations of the devil. I know that this post is a little self-centered and more like a journal entry than an encouraging blog post, but I know I am not alone in my journey of faith. I pour my heart out to you guys because I know that so many of you are at turning points in your own lives. It’s so hard to believe in what we can’t see, especially when we have an enemy barraging our thoughts with “fake news” (I like to call it that. You can substitute with “lies”). Despite the fact that writing these posts is somewhat therapeutic for me, I’m writing them for you. So that you know you’re not alone. So that you can have the courage to walk on water in your own lives.
The message I really want to give you (and that God is giving me) is don’t give up.
We can do this!
“I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!” John 14:12-14
“So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him.” Matthew 7:9-11
“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6:31-34
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6
“The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17