I love the imagery in this chapter. When we remain obedient to God, we are like a tree planted near the water. We bear fruit in season, and our leaves don’t die. Everything we do succeeds.
I’m doing a little challenge for myself, one Psalm a day, everyday for the whole book -150 days. I’m going to really dig in a listen for God to speak to me through them. I did this once before and it was life-changing. This time, I’m gonna write about it (aren’t you lucky).
Today I obviously started with chapter one. Which was exactly what I needed.
Do you ever wake up some days and just think, why do I even bother?
I’ve been so excited the past week or so. My kids are doing amazing since I’ve committed to staying home. I mean like, drastic 180 degree turn-arounds! Justin and I are rebuilding what we thought was dying, this time with Christ as our foundation. It’s incredible to see God working in this. My blog is growing. I made my first dime with it – literally. I am $.13 richer because of my awesome readers 😉 My stress level is like non-existent. I feel better than I think I ever have in my life. Most importantly, I feel so blessed to be able to just pray all day. Like, any time I want to. I can sing to God, even yell at him if I want. He’s my main focus and my best friend, and I get to hang out with him all day.
But today, I just feel guilty. I should be working. I shouldn’t be pursuing some unrealistic dream. I’m just being lazy. If not lazy, then I must be running from the exhausting frustration of dealing with people all day. But I need to get over it because my kids need to eat. My phone was turned off today because I can’t pay the bill. My car payment is now past due. Where am I going to come up with the money to pay all of this crap? Blogging? Selling old clothes on Ebay?
I feel like I’m just chasing (another) unachievable pipe dream.
Then 2 things happened.
I was reading another blogger’s post on losing his job. I was reminded of a sermon where our pastor said something along the lines of “Your greatest disappointment can lead to your greatest God-appointment.”
That popped into my head for a reason, because I never remember stuff like that. I believe God was reminding me that yeah, I might be disappointed and even a bit ashamed over losing my job. But instead of letting it defeat me or wasting the time I had getting another time-consuming and stressful retail job, I used the time to fast in prayer and ask God to show me where to go from here. His way, not mine. Despite the difficulties and the possibility of losing everything, I have been obedient to him. And the payoff has been huge.
But still, money is necessary. Where is that?
Then I read this first chapter of Psalm.
Two Ways to Live
1 Happy are those who don’t listen to the wicked,
who don’t go where sinners go,
who don’t do what evil people do.
2 They love the Lord’s teachings,
and they think about those teachings day and night.
3 They are strong, like a tree planted by a river.
The tree produces fruit in season,
and its leaves don’t die.
Everything they do will succeed.
4 But wicked people are not like that.
They are like chaff that the wind blows away.
5 So the wicked will not escape God’s punishment.
Sinners will not worship with God’s people.
6 This is because the Lord takes care of his people,
but the wicked will be destroyed.
It’s like God was saying, Hey! Which one of these are you? The first one, yes. So what happens to those who love me and obey my teachings? They are strong, like a tree planted by a river. The tree produces fruit in SEASON, and its leaves don’t die. EVERYTHING THEY DO WILL SUCCEED. Everything YOU do will succeed. In season.
I guess it goes back to being patient, which I am not. But I do know, I haven’t made the wrong choice. I am living my life for God more than ever before. I am building his Kingdom in my family and watching them thrive as I live out God’s intended role for me as a parent. I am inspiring others to the freedom in Christ, something that always has gotten pushed to the bottom of my priority list. Mostly because I am only good at focusing on one thing at a time. I can focus on leading a team and making sales, but whilst doing so, all else is forgotten.
So these are my ramblings on what God has shown me on day one of this quest. I would love for you to join me! One chapter of Psalms a day. You can do it. I believe in you 😉